Friday, June 5, 2009

Disappointment




Well today I weighed myself again. 178lbs. Two weeks ago I was down to 171lbs. It seems like when life is tough for me I resort to food and inactivity. TV, computer etc. This week was terrible for me. I kept eating crackers and dip and in large excess. I know I was doing it partly because I am frustrated with many things in life right now.


As many of you know. I am a full time casino dealer and I do a business on the side with Herbalife . I got into Herbalife when I was 200lbs(picture about) and I lost over 30lbs in 4 months on the program(picture above). My lowest weight was 164lb. I am struggling with getting my website exposure. I am struggling with keeping the weight off because I am down in the dumps about my lack of business success. I am also in the dumps because I looked at it as a way out of the casino business. I am not giving up but I am very frustrated. I paid $900 for my website and not one sale and its been 6 months. I think part of it is I have to work on it more, but I still thought by now I would have some sales on the website. I still get some small orders with Herbalife but not as much as I was hoping for.


My house is upsidedown by 100K, I am single and 28yrs old- can be fun but I wish I found the right one, I miss family they live in Utica, NY and in the casino industry I can't get holidays off and I owe over $60,000 in Credit Card debt. Daily all of these burdens are getting to me and its hard to get out of bed and deal with them.


On Friday, my mentor in Herbalife Rachel Ostler, who lives in Salt Lake City, I live in Las Vegas is going to call me and see how I am doing with my weight loss program and my business. She is the best, soo supportive, I couldn't have asked for a better mentor. I feel soo bad that I am letting her down right now. I know she wouldn't say that but I feel like it.


I'll let you know how our appointment goes.




7 comments:

spunkysuzi said...

I'm so sorry that things aren't going the way you want/need them to!! Life can definitely be overwhelming. But you do have people who care and sometimes it's good to reach out and ask for help.
Hope things look up for you soon and i'm sure that your appointment with your mentor will help.

Katie said...

Life is filled with up and downs. Seems like you're feeling overwhelmed and that you're not getting to where you want to go fast enough.

Patience is a virtue, love.

I'm one to talk though. I wish the speed limit was 200 mph on the highway so I could get where I'm going quicker. But, if I crash and fall off, I'd surely die.

So, take everything in stride. Stay on the horse.

Quote for you:

“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”

TJ said...

You have come so far! Keep up the great work!! Stay Strong! :)

Herbalife Las Vegas said...

What a quote Katie, I love it. I am going to put it in the signature of my email for a little while. Thanks
Thank you everyone for the support!

Marilyn's Money said...

So sorry your in so much debt! Weight problems , debt we all have them. I think secretly these blogs all go together!

Sheryl said...

Just take it one day at a time. I too am an emotional eater. But we need to find other ways to to handles those emotions. We deserve better.

I have started weight watchers online and that really seems to have helped. I like keeping track of things.

Thanks for following my blog, we can encourage each other through life's ups and downs, to learn how not to let food control our lives.

Karen said...

There is a big difference between those pictures, you can definately tell you've lost weight! Be proud of your accomplishments and keep working on getting to your goal weight.

I am an emotional eater too - it's not something that can be cured overnight. It's a daily struggle and I wish everyone could understand that. Don't let one out of control moment/snack/meal turn into anything more than that. None of us got overweight/obese from one meal, or even one day. Our actions over time add up for either the good or bad - so let's try to keep our positive actions outweighing (no pun intended!) the negative ones!